Shellers wrote:I am in such a negative emotional state right now and I would welcome some feedback. Although I have worked in the field of emotional therapies for some years, I am seeing that some of my practices were bullshit and I just am not sure about the others.
The situation is with my husband's family, his mom with dementia and health issues and his sister wanting total control of the mom, the assets, everything. We have been mostly cut out of being able to visit, to express concerns, etc. There is manipulation, lies, unethical maybe even illegal actions and much more. We thought it wise to try to advocate for the mom but everything has escalated with the sister.
I feel so much hate right now. The situation has been going on for about six or seven weeks after the mom broke her hip. I have had bouts of strong hate and was able to move through it somehow. I can see a correlation with this hate and the hate I never expressed as during neglect and abuse in my childhood.
I want to understand this and work through it in the best way, not bringing in more Dark. So, first question, is this hate from the dark or is it the natural progression due to feeling violated/attacked? I do not like feeling this at all but I also don't want to deal with this incorrectly, causing myself even more harm.
Here is what I am doing to help myself: I am running the Healing Energy video non-stop (well, unless the computer burps). I have ordered the commands - "remove negative chains", "remove attacking data." I have run the skib commands for fake skills, skill blocks, the Defend macro. I have listened to Pommnitz a few times.
I just started the video this morning but have been using the skib commands for a couple of days and the music on and off for two days.
Is this the best I can do or is there something I am missing?
I'm sorry this has happened and I hope you are feeling better now.
I wish I had known what Alex said a long time ago... It would've saved me from a lot of emotional breakdowns.
I've started to try to ignore negative feelings and it's very effective. It's really hard, especially in the beginning and especially if the feelings and/or thoughts are very strong. But I've found that being stubborn and ignoring them no matter what makes them gradually disappear until they're gone.
Also, in case you didn't know, you can command the energy video to work at a higher intensity or at the intensity that it thinks would be best for you, if you want. I saw someone once say that the highest factor it can work at is 130 but I don't know if it's higher now.
I usually just ask it to work at the intensity that it sees fit. And the energy video and healing music help me when I'm trying to ignore dark attacks :)
Also, Alex, I'm so glad you mentioned that emotions aren't just chemical reactions in our brains. I felt sick whenever they said things like that in my psychology classes. Psychology classes make it sound like we're just robots