LeeDee wrote:
Of course this topic doesn't satisfy you/us as it triggers more in more not so nice stuff in us
Actually I meant it doesn't satisfy me from a more general, global perspective for all people, than from my own.
I will not talk about my personal experiences in public.
To me love is a prerequisite for a peaceful, harmoniously, healthy, balanced ... life on earth.
We don't live this life, most of us (apart from all wars) and this makes me sad.
So I think it is a big part of our construction place here.
These nasty outcomes you have is something that others have too, who experienced similar way, I guess. Just everybody handles in a different way to deal with them or uses different valves. If you feel better and helps than write it down here, as you started to do so...
for not deleting your reply and for pointing out how important it is to confront yourself with everything that bothers you, otherwise you'll never get rid of it (another trick to keep us trapped). No matter how painful it maybe in the first moment, it will be followed by a huge clearing wave, which will give you the necessary strength to get rid of it. 
But with this topic its even harder to speak about.Usually when i try to explain her that she is under deception and influence she counters with that its ok...which feels bad.
person) even my sister who lives here around i didn't saw this year yet, or neighbours... My heart is closed in sense i don't care just about anything. All is tasteless in all senses. Problem is also practical , here in 3d it is necessary also to survive, and i cannot put myself to work for money. I feel like a bag of potato and i don't care if mouses and worms are eating and ruining this potato... I don't know if i described but something like this i guess.
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