Rehema wrote:There is no reason to feel guilty about my donations however way I use to free up money from my budget. I live frugal but comfortable and I'm used to it. Skipping meals when not hungry is part of life. My food pantry is full of food that will take me months to eat.
Thank you for explaining! Skipping a meal is part of life, I understand that and I used to do it too. We don't have a food pantry as such and our food stocks won't last more than a week. In fact we live from day to day, depending on our physical condition (which changes a few times during the day) and on the money available. Planning for the next week/s is just impossible. We have 0 "normality" and 0 "security" in any way. Only people that met us in person or went through similar situations themselves can maybe understand that.
Rehema wrote: When I first came to this website and I was new here, I really thought the Protoi were living well like the rest of the gurus (donation button, hello?). I didn't know the situation and really thought the 2,700€ monthly goal was some type of a joke to motivate people. Every now and then you would mention something about this needed financial support and I would assume that was part of business as usual (all gurus, lightworkers, churches, temples, mosques, etc ask for 'tithe' on a daily basis).
I would have thought the same. We are fighting the biggest fight against darkness ever, we go against every institution in the world and this may give the impression that we only do it because we can afford to do so. The truth is another. We do it because this is the only way to change things for everyone in a a global scale and stop the darkness once forever. We do it because no one else is able AND willing to do it. This is why darks go crazy and hit us from every possible side on every occasion. We see through their game, all the others play their game and spread inaccurate info. They permanently cheat on themselves and everyone that follows them. Many of them are not aware of what they are doing but they would never question their "intuition" because it ensures them a good life, which can be translated as a "reward for the good job they do" and they definitely don't want to miss that. Keeping up the lie is way easier than find out the hard truth and change one's ways.
How the Protoi live:
The official survival rate in Germany is estimated at around EUR 730 per month. In our case you can add almost 300 € for useless healthcare. We have to pay that ourselves. Apply for social benefits would force us to stop doing what we are doing. This may be a temporary solution to our personal survival problem but not a solution to the global fight against darkness.
2700 € is just about the minimum for 4 people to ensure their surviving. Living would mean to have a nice home with nice furniture, a proper kitchen, cupboards full of good stuff, new/good working domestic appliances, a good car, vacation etc. We have none of them. Our furniture consists of cheap bits and pieces. Our kitchen consists of a few cupboards (two of them without door at the moment) a newer fridge, an old freezer, an old stove, a table with 4 chairs and a few other things plus a very good coffee machine

. The living room is rather a collection of old stuff. Some older cupboards in there and an older sofa (almost antique). The walls are empty and I miss some nice cupboards and racks to put my (many years old) stuff in. The bedroom is another mess altogether. Bookshelves used for the clothes. Two small cupboards that are not enough to put in all the clothes and the bed sheets. The study is the room we spend the most time in. This one is also full of cheap furniture but in total acceptable and presentable. My son's room is luckily no longer my business.
My car is now 13 years old and not very trustable. We use it mostly for groceries. Everything else is too expensive and fuel is at over 1.50 € per litre right now.
More every-day-"problems" (talking just about myself) that can't be covered by the monthly needed amount:
I went to the dentist 2-3 months ago and she found a tooth that needs a new filling. She can't estimate the state of the tooth and the cost would be something between 250 to 1000 € depending on the damage and the material she will need. This tooth isn't giving me any problems, so I don't consider it urgent. I have been needing new spectacles for months now. My old ones are full of scratches and partly broken. I hate them anyway and I don't really take good care of them. My eyes have gotten worse, so I definitely need new ones. This is going to be another 100-400 € and it won't even help me see as I used to years ago. It is just an aid that restores a part of your vision. A surgery could help a bit, but this is a quite unsure thing too. Each eye would cost over 1000 and I am not willing to take the risk of a surgery at this point.
I do moan about all these dark imposed problems. If they hadn't messed with our self-healing properties no one in the world would ever need glasses or tooth fillings. Everyone gets this kind of problems during a life time but everyone considers it as a "normal" thing. No, this situation is NOT normal, even if billions of people claim otherwise. They are simply wrong! This is dark sh.. and needs to be reversed. Protoi can do it. Unfortunately it takes much more time than initially thought/hoped. We'll get there! We only need to survive as long as needed, so everyone can finally start living the life they deserve. A guru with a comfortable life wouldn't bother changing your problems. A guru would gladly teach you a way to endure your suffering, but he/she will never help you get out of it. We are not living well. We had some nice comfortable times in the past, but this never lasted long.
And nowadays we DO go for some birthday meal or coffee outside from time to time even if we can't really afford it. When everything gets too much and we need some distraction, we just go. It helps a lot to stay alive and sane under these circumstances and who knows? Tomorrow is another day
