Pegazus wrote:Grayfox wrote:This post, in perspective, is short for the very very wide amount of topics and emotions it covers. There are so many emotions.. it is such a deep post. and this is the third time or so I am reading it, and I still don't understand it in detail. I have so many questions, but before those questions I have so many emotions. I just wanted to comment on how much this post moved me, it is so powerful. I will need lots of time to process these emotions, and slowly work through each point to see it in some kind of detail..
big hugs to everyone
Emotions are really hard to manage,thats why i try to supress them.They can come like bombs.I try to filter them and slow their effects but i already have scars and a lot of things to unscramble.I guess its just the usual shit that everyone has.
I hope you can keep up with your emotions.
Suppression is not a viable long term strategy. It inevitably leads to outbursts of stored up emotions. I'm sure you know what I'm talking about... it's a struggle to untangle all those suppressed emotions. Then on top of it, we have been bombarded our whole lives with stuff that makes our emotions go haywire. Certain people have also attacked our emotions, knowing that's where we're vulnerable.
Do you know why they've been attacking our emotions to harshly? It's because they couldn't allow them to develop fully. Once developed, our emotions and interactions with other people will be the undoing of all their crap. When we use our emotions properly for sensing and communication, it really helps, not only us but also the ones we're communicating with. Emotional intelligence (enteric nervous system) has a much higher "bandwidth" than our conscious, intelligent mind by itself. When the two are working together in tandem, it feels like a shield is created, similar to how the immune system works. During times like this, talking to people is truly a pleasure due to the much higher bandwidth of the communication. Also, attacks are seen much more easily and mitigated automatically.
Emotions, I believe, are fractal in nature. This assertion is confirmed by the complete lack of emotional intelligence in D's. They manipulate from a purely intelligence point of view, which is also one of their weaknesses. Expression of emotions (even the "bad" ones; I'm talking for us only, not for D's) leads to short term catharsis and long term healing. We must learn to express our emotions in order to develop our emotional intelligence/sensing. Expressing your emotions won't be pretty at first because there's quite a back log of emotions you need to go through. It will look like you're overreacting to pretty much everything and that's alright. If this happens, apologize in earnest and move on! It will happen and it's OK.
Believe it or not, you're highly gifted in the area of emotional intelligence. Don't let yourself or anyone else tell you otherwise, that's just your past conditioning talking. If you feel like crying, cry it out! If you feel fierce anger inside, hit a punching bag and get the anger out! Make sure you're exercising your body regularly. Start using your emotions and listening to what they're hinting at.
Just because they once tried to turn you into a robot like themselves doesn't mean that you're actually a robot, only capable of intelligent calculation.