LeeDee wrote:.
I'm aware that I react, I'm aware that I need not to react, I'm aware that I reacted personally (obvious, otherwise there would not be a reaction on physical level), I'm aware that reaction is of no use nor of no good, that it is simply stupid and make me (and only me) problems - heated head, red cheeks and the result of it embarassement ... I know all and I do not react in conscious level and I also know that on conscious level I do not surpress or block anything ... but ... I still get red cheeks ... which of course I don't like ...
Is like describing some of my daily interactions... I know something triggered in me.. But within 3 sec i dont have time to cope with the reaction... And it is happening..
I remember being younger in sutuations, wich i literatly had to leave running to dry all the sweat... Was either that or look extremely umcomftable with sweat al over my shirt and Face..